Friday, August 03, 2007

What do I do when I'm sad?

And lately I have been very, very sad.

I knit like crazy. I made this yesterday. It's a scarf and hat made from three skeins of Noro Transitions, for my Uncle's birthday.

The photos are not great, but I feel like crap and am, as aforementioned, very sad. So you'll forgive me, please.

The other thing I do when I'm sad? I change my hair. I'm growing it to donate again, but I had some caramel highlights put in. Here is another crappy photo, of moi, taken with the mac. I look like crap, I'm sick and have been crying a lot, but you can sort of see the hair.

Did it work? Well, not really. But it's ok. I'll cease the crying, someday.

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Anonymous tiennie said...

I'm so sorry you're feeling sad. I wish I could do something for you. The FO's are lovely and so is your hair. I've cut and donated my hair about 5 times now. It's getting long again and I want to cut it but it's not ready yetn

5:55 PM  
Blogger Bertha said...

I know that trivial things like the status of you hair seem really inconsequential at times like these, but I have to say, your hair is fucking lucious. So rich and thick. Really beautiful, and I know it will just as beautiful cut short.

6:19 PM  
Blogger Annie said...

Bertha, Thanks! That made me laugh. I needed that! It's all straight and smooth after over an hour of blow drying. Poor Amy (stylist). Most of the time it's big and out of control! :)

Tiennie, it's great, isn't it? I love getting it long enough, then going in and having it chopped! I am also ready to chop, but am trying to wait patiently!

6:53 PM  
Blogger dancingnic said...

Beautiful, beautiful hair! You're a babe Annie!

There are worse things to do than change your hair and knit like a bandit when you're feeling sad. At least you are channelling your creative energy!

I always feel so impressed that you are able to be honest about how you are doing, without being self indulgent and mopey!

I really hope you feel better soon. Thinking of you.

N x

7:18 PM  
Blogger Batty said...

Your hair is beautiful. It's thick, a beautiful brown, and it looks amazing with the caramel highlights.
And your knitting is beautiful too, I'm sure the hat and scarf will be appreciated.

The problem with any kind of grief is that it has to be worked through. I tried skipping parts of the process once, and it was a bad idea. The most helpful thing I ever read in a book was that grief (in my case, not over someone's passing, but over something that happened to me that should never have happened) is not a linear process, but that you go through different stages at different times, and sometimes, you go back to a stage you've already been through.
Heavy stuff, but I know it helped me understand that what was happening was 'normal', that other people had been through it, and that you can come out of this far more OK than you think possible. You will, when you're good and ready. In the meantime, I wish you peace and strength.

I'd love to give advice on how to cope, but my coping mechanisms involve eating and baking. Not good because weight gain can make you feel crappier than you started.

9:00 AM  
Blogger Nell said...

Annie, I agree, your hair looks goregous. I wich mine was like yours. Instead it a big scary mess. :)

10:04 AM  
Anonymous Kim said...

Annie, I'm so sorry you're feeling sad. :( I hope everything gets better for you soon.


1:04 PM  
Blogger sassenach said...

I'm with you on the sadness. Hope we both feel better soon.

Your hair looks good =)

1:55 PM  
Blogger Amie said...

ditto what Sassenach said.

I have to force myself to knit when I'm sad, and cleaning goes right out the window, so I end up living in a pigsty covered with cat hair and dog spit. which does not help matters at all. It was a revelation to realize that my mental state is shown all to clearly by the cleanliness of my living space, but not a revelation that helped solve anything...

I donated all my hair on the anniversary of my best friend's daughter's death - I wanted the date to have something good come out of it.

3:22 PM  

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